A special dedication to my Benz. First, we can get all the criticism crap aside by me acknowledging the following: 1) I am a foolish metal lover 2) I am a brand or typical Asian (not typical, Asian yes) stereo type with a Mercedes Benz 3) I am materialistic 4) I am vain, and needy 5) I value metal more than life.



I am not any of the above, what I am is a loyal, frugal person. I take care of my cars, and I run them until they give up on me. I officially have nothing valuable on me the minute this car got plowed! Between the burglary and this car crash, I can say that I have been stripped off of all my accessories. My Mercedes Benz was my dream car. I had worked very hard and saved  for it. A dream that I had to train my brain for years to rid the guilt to get. It was the only place I could have any control over in terms of cleanliness since kids. It was the PREFERRED car that our family always rode in. It was the one that took the most abuse from our family too. And with god's will this Mercedes Benz saved my life!


Last Friday while on my way to the dentist after dropping off my kids. All the cars were  in stop and go traffic on HWY 85, more stop than go. At the time the crash happened, I was at a complete stop. I glanced in my rear view mirror and saw a truck coming at me. It wasn't stopping. It kept plowing my Benz into the car in front of me, then I heard my car crunched and the metal crushing. What ran through my head was, does this mean my car is totaled? Am I alive? Is this what people see and feel before their souls take-off?


No. Thank god. I am alive, and wide awake. No blood was shed. I have a lot of pain and bruises on my right hip, and all along the left side, but no broken bones and no hospital required. Besides God, the Mercedes Benz saved my life!


I called 911. I believe the four cars involved did too. The truck had rammed into my Benz so hard its front was stuck to my back bumper. The CHP came. We were ordered to stay in our vehicles. He asked me to floored the gas pedal to pull my Benz away from the truck, so that I can get it to the shoulder. This was the most unusual crash ever for me, I didn't exchange info with the person who hit me, the CHP officer and the Police Officer took all our info and gave us a report number.


I love my car, still love it very much even though it is all crumbled. I always thought I would be 60 / 70 and still have this car. If I could fix it, I would, and I want to, but the repairs are way beyond what the car is actually worth right now. I've had it since 2003. It's been really great, low mileage, and no major problems except for the regular up keep and maintenance. It is not finicky like our Volkswagen.

It was my perfect car, it had everything I wanted on it, but still modestly humble. My panorama sunroof, the only car that ever has this feature. My sports edition package, my black birch wood console. The saddest and most regrettable part is that I would never run out and buy another brand new, special order car like this ever again. It is once in a lifetime experience and it will never be the same the second time.


LET ME WEEP! Please let me weep about my car. I know all about that other stuff. I am lucky I am alive, I am lucky that no blood was shed. I am lucky that I was not hurt. I am lucky god didn't take me in the process. As a matter of fact, he was so good to me that I just came out of it with some bruises, a stiff neck, pain in my shoulders, collar bone, and hip. But damn it! Because someone decided not pay attention to the road while he was driving, he took away the most important thing to me. The only thing that can comfort me when I am pissed at the world, or that made me feel great about all my hard work and sweat. I always thought that having someone buy you something extraordinary would make you feel very special, but no - having to come up with it yourself, by being able to resist everything else that isn't it to save for what you love and use, and be with for so long is so much more gratifying. You will feel a tremendous lost, something that could never be explained. The meals you starved yourself, the fun you pass up, the nice clothes you have to turn away. Everything.

But yes, at least I had it for nine years, at least I still have my one piece body. I could even say it loved me back - a lot- because it has helped save my life! It was only a few years ago, that I went through another great lost. Again, my life was not in endanger, had it been any other way, a twist of faith, I would not be sitting here. So with all these lost, there is my luck. The luck that none of my family is hurt, nor I. The luck that we still have each other. The pain of this material lost will fade in time. 


My car in the shop. Eventually the mechanics had to saw my trunk open, while I looked away. I couldn't watch a beautiful thing being saw in pieces like that. You know how you love your pets? I love my car that same way, or much more. It took me around, it helped me make money to feed my family, it help me get my kids to the doctors so that they can be well again. It does so much for me. It loved me too.


Then there is the other vehicle. I am better today, five days after the crash, but I can't even sympathized with someone who never even tried to step on the brakes! He was so involved in what he was doing that he should not have been behind the wheels.


I will see my Benz once again, before it goes to the junk jar. Even though it is so totaled, it is still a gorgeous car. Just beautiful in every way. It's beautiful because it was practical too. The black leather seats with air vents was perfect for the kids, and easy for me to clean. The light blue tints on the windows were just enough to shield the sun from their faces without blinding me. But life goes on, and now, I have to go fight the battles.

Here are Self Sagacity's Thursday Two Questions #106
1) Have you ever been in a crash that your car or the other totaled?
2) Were you or anyone else hurt in the crash ?


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