Self Deceit

Guest post by Poison Ivy

I have been doing some soul searching. I guess that is a diplomatic way of saying it, as if I had taken time out to actually spent on analyzing my life. It wasn't intentional, so I don't think it is fair to call it an act of self evaluation. The subject fell upon me like a heavy lump of rock, and I spare it no time. I decided to stepped outside of the circle I currently belonged to, to watch everyone else conjugate without me. I decided to be very peaceful even in my normal habitat.

It’s sad to say one can only live with self deception for so long. It is not so much that we pretended on purpose, but we most probably just wanted to believe. We wanted to believe in the power of change. We wanted to believe that our love can conquer all. The mix matched feelings that we avoided. The intuitions that we never took seriously, all fell upon us in that one moment - the moment when we were woken to see things as they really are. The moment when we stopped telling ourselves that it’s okay.

Even the power of change can’t change sparkling sherry into champagne. Even if it is the best sparkling sherry, it could taste like champagne and look like champagne, but it will never be champagne.
When I see gray hair I picked them out. What happens when my hair starts thining? I need to face-up and look to ds laboratories revita for help, instead, I end-up with volumizing shampoo, hairsprays, etc. Recognizing self deceit is part of being confident in who you are.

Now everything adds-up.
Now that I stepped outside of my circle, the day I am forced to wake-up and face the truth. The things I settled for because of my situation, and the clues I brushed aside in order to kept peace, they surfaced once in a while only to remind me to be true to myself. Yet, I am hoping I can sleep-in for a while longer. I am not ready to admit that I knew this was coming.

Today's Flowers, Macro Monday,